Thursday, October 15, 2015

Madison

Anyone who knows me or talked to me this past month, knows how ready I was to have our baby girl & would have gladly taken an earlier arrival date.
That being said, It was quite nice being able to get a good meal in & go to bed extra early and get a goodnight's rest before our scheduled c-section. I know I've mentioned on the blog before that for medical reasons I have to have c-sections and although it's not the ideal, I am incredibly grateful for them!

We checked into the hospital bright & early on Saturday and were quickly ushered into a room where we were prepped for surgery. With this being our third c-section, the routine was very familiar, or was until they had the hubby stay behind while they administered the spinal. The last couple times, Kyle had been by my side every step of the way, so it was only natural his absence brought on the full effect of the pre-surgery nerves. Well, that & our anesthesiologist inability to poke me in the right spot:). After a few failed attempts and what felt like hours of holding my breath & arching my back, the spinal was in place & I was able to relax. Soon after, they let Kyle into the surgical room & the doctors began working on me. 

Even though I couldn't see anything they were doing, Kyle kept reassuring me that everything was going well. As terrifying as being on the operating table can be, the scariest part is not knowing how your baby is fairing. It's not until you hear their sweet little cry that you can truly relax & let out a sigh of relief.

I love seeing the look of pure love in Kyle's eyes as he gets the first look at our baby! It is just remarkable to me how powerful & overwhelming the bonds of love between you and your baby are when you finally meet! And, getting to cuddle with our sweet little girl sure makes all the fear, distress & pain worth it!
We welcomed our sweet Madison Brielle on Saturday, October 10th at 8:36 am. She weighed 7 pounds, 2 ounces and came in at 20 inches long.



 That first day, was pure bliss. My mom & girls were so excited to meet miss Madison! We spent the rest of the day holding her and trying to take in her lovely newborn scent!

 The next few days were an emotional roller coaster. As Madison struggled to eat {going up to six hours without wanting to eat}, doctors told us they feared Mady might suffer from seizures, and that the initial heart murmur they heard had changed into a concerning one.  It was all a bit much to hear all at once & the next few days were definitely emotionally & physically draining. It was really hard being apart from Madison, while they had her in the Special Care Unit for 24 hour observation. We got to visit with her in between feedings, but it was distressing to have her so far away from me. not knowing how she was doing. 

Thank fully after our extended hospital stay, the doctors were able to definitively rule out seizures, which was the scariest thing for me. Although, feedings are still a bit rough, since she doesn't seem to wake up on her own to eat, we are hoping she will be less sleepy in the coming days & weeks!

 Every time I look at her, I can't help but be filled with love & gratitude! We love her so much & are feeling extremely grateful for our healthy & strong Madison!  Thank you to all our friends and family that have kept our family in your thoughts & prayers! It truly means the world to us!